I can’t sleep

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I need to get over this already.

But it’s so hard. Thinking about you becomes less at times, but all in all, you’re still always on my mind. I know damn well you don’t think about me as much or as deeply. I want to be completely over you. You haven’t shown me you still care or that you want me back at all, even though you supposedly are ‘in love’ with me. What, that was 2, maybe 3 weeks ago? You don’t just fall in love with someone & treat them like they’re nothing all the time. Or right after you tell them you’re in love with them. Or eat that bitch’s face the very next day. It pisses me off how full of bullshit you are, and always was. I loved you too much to care, & I still love you. But fuck it, you’re just an immature asshole who didn’t deserve me in the first place.

You

played me. i can’t even be mad at you because i knew what i was getting into when we started talking. but all that time, 8 months of wasting time on you. it sucks. i loved you so fucking much and you never even cared. you just replaced me with some other bitch who won’t ever love you half as much as i did. you meet my entire family, i meet yours. they love you, yours love me. i spend money on you, never regret a second i’ve spend with you. ugh all that time we spent together: getting closer, falling for you more and more every day, becoming bestfriends. not once did you ever put me before anyone, when i did the exact opposite for you. i always put everything aside just to spend any time i could with you. since i loved you. you claim you still love me, but you won’t do shit about it. but it’s really fine, because i realize how much i don’t need you ever since we ended this nonexistent thing we had. & i can’t say i lost you or you lost me, because we never even started. it is what it is. guess i can just wish you the best.

I wish I could sing.